There are things in life I have no control over. I want to be able to fix things, make them better, and I can’t. There are times when my heart hurts for those around me and my soul struggles because I can’t change what they’re going through and I don’t want them to hurt. I start to go away mentally because when I love, I love with everything in me and would give anything to heal what’s wrong. I can’t keep doing what I’m doing. It won’t help me and it won’t help anyone else. I can give it to God and have faith he’s got this. He brought me to where I am in life and it’s okay for me to let him take control because he knows the plans he created. He wants me to lean on him, and in return, he makes sure I know what I’m capable of doing in this life. I can be a wife, a mother, a sister, a friend. I can be an ear to listen and arms to hug. I can be comfort and strength. I can learn the lessons he’s trying to teach me, even if I get on the defense and don’t want to listen. He’s got the patience for me and makes sure those in my life won’t give up on me while I’m learning too. After all, he put them in my life. I don’t have to be scared they’ll hate me or leave me. I can’t fix everything. I can try to do what I can. I’m not perfect and will mess up. I can try to get it right the next time. I can let go and give to God what’s out of my control. He’s got this. And he’s got me.
