Brittany told me to write everything out. All that the cult put me through, her through, us through. She figured so that way maybe what we know will help someone else some day. Some day if we are gone from all they’ve done and can’t help people through it ourselves. I’d rather keep fighting to watch the cult crumble in person. The problem I’ve had is I just don’t know where to start. They’ve done so much. So I start with the way they manipulate people to hurt their minds, hearts, bodies, and souls. They make people think they have to be silent, be alone. Te cult makes people think they’re so fucking crazy, when in fact, they are the fucking crazy ones. They have broken me down more times than I’d like to admit, they are always meant to good at learning people and the best ways to break them. So for those dealing with a cult, know you can rise back up. You only fail when you quit trying. They’ve made me feel hopeless, worthless, emotionless, alone, scared, miserable, depressed. So point number 2, you are stronger than what they put in your mind and you will overcome it. It won’t be easy to do. This is where having support is really, really damn important. There are other people out there who know what you’re going through, understand the pain. It may take time to find the right ones that are to help you through, but know you will find them. They were always meant to be your people. Fight for them just as they would fight for you. I guess this sums up letter #1. My mind is already working on #2.
